September 06, 2005

Unusual Emotional Response...

I've had a strange sensation for the past several days: I'm happy. It has been so long. I like this. This is a good thing. I could get used to this.

I've felt depressed, down, anxious for so long that the feeling of contentment and hope was unusual. A bit like singing poetry by Emily Dickinson to the tune of "The Yellow Rose of Texas." Try it, it works! Go ahead, you know you want to...

My life closed twice
Before its close
And it remains to see
If immortality unveil
A third event to me

So huge so hopeless
To conceive as those
that twice befell
For parting is all we know of heaven
and all we need of hell.



Go ahead... try it!


Gilligan died September 2nd; his death was announced today. Bob Denver expired at age seventy. I remember him as Maynard G. Krebbs. The lyrics to the Gilligan's Island theme song can be sung to the tune to "Stairway to Heaven." Seems darkly appropriate. But I digress...

There are several things that need to happen yet before I can say that my life has its order back. But I can see clear to their completion. I feel like I am at the edge of the forest and entering a new phase of life that is good.

Life finds a way. This happiness thing seems good to me.

-tDF