I hope the gods are happy at having crushed me yet again.
MM won't talk... the isolation is killing me. I took down a posting believing that it was inapproriate; now I wished I'd have left a record. I don't know how much more I can take. I want to give up, life sucks and then you die. This ride just ain't worth the price of admission. I live in a shit-hole apartment, on very limited funds. I have come through the storm but fear that the vessle was compromized beyond seaworthiness. And now, it seems, I've fucked up the one thing that gave my life any beauty and hope. It almost seems better just to pull the plugs and go down with the ship.
Fuck me for the idiot that I am.
